Refrigeration system is broken

The fire that is my love for you could not be contained. For years I had the "refrigeration system" working in my heart to keep me frozen and numb. The refrigeration system had to work hard every day to keep my heart cold. Sure, the system went down for brief times, that's to be expected when a "machine" has to work so hard, but was always "repaired" and put back into service. Then I made the mistake of reading all your old letters and my journals from our times together. That was more than the refrigeration system could take...it is totally broken down. No parts available to fix it this time. Fire is burning without containment.