What we have is MTL
More
Than
Love
You were Made To Love me and I was Made To Love you.
Friday, June 29, 2018
Friday, July 14, 2017
I heard "Total Eclipse of the Heart" on the radio on the way to work today. The words rang so true.
Dave is a part of my life, you are a part of me. Big difference.
Missy is a part of your life, I am a part of you. Big difference.
We are the other half of each other. No one else can be that for me and no one else can be that for you. We have a "weird, special connection" like you once said. You also once said to me, "You are so much a part of who I am."
You also once said, "What we have transcends all that." In reference to all the stuff that happened in the summer of 1995. Transcends. Yes. What we have transcends anything that has happened over the years. "Like gold to airy thinness beat," to quote the John Donne poem, A Valediction: Forbidding Mourning.
I love you so much!!!!!
Dave is a part of my life, you are a part of me. Big difference.
Missy is a part of your life, I am a part of you. Big difference.
We are the other half of each other. No one else can be that for me and no one else can be that for you. We have a "weird, special connection" like you once said. You also once said to me, "You are so much a part of who I am."
You also once said, "What we have transcends all that." In reference to all the stuff that happened in the summer of 1995. Transcends. Yes. What we have transcends anything that has happened over the years. "Like gold to airy thinness beat," to quote the John Donne poem, A Valediction: Forbidding Mourning.
I love you so much!!!!!
Tuesday, March 7, 2017
Friday, December 4, 2015
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
Please God, please!
God,
I need Doug so much. I want to share a real life with him. Please, Lord, can you somehow work it out that he and I can share real life together in a way that glorifies you? The love he and I have is such a beautiful gift. How can you not want us to be together? Maybe you are protecting us from ourselves? I want to do your will. I pray, Lord, that it is your will for Doug and I to be together. I do not want to sin against you. You knew my heart when I married Dave. You knew I still loved Doug. If it is not your will for us together, please give my heart peace with the situation. I will love him always, you know that, Lord. Help me to trust You.
I ask these things in Jesus' name. Amen.
I need Doug so much. I want to share a real life with him. Please, Lord, can you somehow work it out that he and I can share real life together in a way that glorifies you? The love he and I have is such a beautiful gift. How can you not want us to be together? Maybe you are protecting us from ourselves? I want to do your will. I pray, Lord, that it is your will for Doug and I to be together. I do not want to sin against you. You knew my heart when I married Dave. You knew I still loved Doug. If it is not your will for us together, please give my heart peace with the situation. I will love him always, you know that, Lord. Help me to trust You.
I ask these things in Jesus' name. Amen.
Sunday, August 10, 2014
20th Anniversary
Today is the 20th anniversary of the day we met! 20 years! Where has the time gone? If you would have asked me then, where I would be today, I couldn't have possibly imagined where I'd be. If you would have asked me later that week, I would have hoped I'd be with you. That is still my hope for the future, that someday, somehow, God will work it out so we can be together. To serve Him.
I miss our connection so badly. I long to look in your eyes. I'm so sorry I hurt you and that you are so afraid of my love, that you associate it with pain.
I sent you a message on Facebook today about Dave's uncle's Jeep and the panel truck. I know you don't know the significance of today, but I needed to mark the day and share a tiny bit of it with you.
Dave and Missy are for now.
You and I are forever.
editing:
You read my message and about an hour and a half later you answered! You are out in the beautiful weather enjoying your Jeep. You said you were out showing a house to someone. Right before you replied to my message you changed your profile pic to one of your Jeep in front of your Grandfather's machine shop. Facebook showed that you answered from your phone near Mont Clare, PA. Soooo cool that you wrote to me "in real time". You replied back so quickly and while you were out and about! I love you so much! Your last line said "Get out and enjoy that Volvo too!" Kinda like you wanted to have a shared experience with me.
I had internet radio on and Bonnie Tyler's "Total Eclipse of the Heart" was on. I decided to check to see if you had written and you had! Totally fitting and especially today, "Once upon a time I was falling in love, now I'm only falling apart..."
I miss our connection so badly. I long to look in your eyes. I'm so sorry I hurt you and that you are so afraid of my love, that you associate it with pain.
I sent you a message on Facebook today about Dave's uncle's Jeep and the panel truck. I know you don't know the significance of today, but I needed to mark the day and share a tiny bit of it with you.
Dave and Missy are for now.
You and I are forever.
editing:
You read my message and about an hour and a half later you answered! You are out in the beautiful weather enjoying your Jeep. You said you were out showing a house to someone. Right before you replied to my message you changed your profile pic to one of your Jeep in front of your Grandfather's machine shop. Facebook showed that you answered from your phone near Mont Clare, PA. Soooo cool that you wrote to me "in real time". You replied back so quickly and while you were out and about! I love you so much! Your last line said "Get out and enjoy that Volvo too!" Kinda like you wanted to have a shared experience with me.
I had internet radio on and Bonnie Tyler's "Total Eclipse of the Heart" was on. I decided to check to see if you had written and you had! Totally fitting and especially today, "Once upon a time I was falling in love, now I'm only falling apart..."
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